To do everything (that God has intended for me to do.)
I'm currently reading Lies Women Believe: And the Truth that Sets Them Free for the Women of Hope summer bible study. I think I've reached the most critical chapter of the book for me personally, and that is Lies that Women Believe... About Priorities. Instantly, lie #18 stuck out like a sore thumb.
"I Don't Have Time to Do Everything I'm Supposed to Do."
Could this book be any more relevant to my current struggles? A few weeks ago, I cried while sharing the mountain I've been climbing both emotionally, physically and spiritually. My thought process was as follows:
It's an hourly struggle: 'what am I supposed to do with my time?' I have a million things I could be doing, but I don't know which is most important! Should I work (and try to make some money) or should I play with my son? Should I attempt to clean this house or should I watch a movie with my husband? Should I get the exercise I need or take a nap? Should I spend time in the Word or finish my assigned blog by midnight? At the end of the day, I feel like I have nothing accomplished and I'm still worried about the bank account.
DeMoss presents an entirely different perspective that is incredibly liberating!
"The Truth is that all I have to do is the work God assigns to me. What a freedom it has been for me to accept that there is time for me to do everything that is on God's 'to do' list for my day, for my week, and for my life!"
I need to drop everyone else's agenda and focus on what God has for me to do. Each season of life has its own set of priorities. It has become increasingly clear what my role is supposed to be, and I have learned to take my "to do" list to the Lord to have it cleaned out. When Micah falls asleep for his nap, I ask God, "What should I do with this time you've given me." Usually the important task at hand becomes clear. My Monday may not look the same as my Tuesday because of this. Sometimes dishes sit in the sink until the next morning, but I have a happy baby and a healthier walk with the Lord. I may not get to work on my blog until midnight (I write for Families.com), but it always gets done and we're eating healthier meals these days. I have eliminated the frustration I used to feel when my baby would wake up sooner than expected or need to be held more than usual. When this happens, the truth is clear in my mind: I am a mother, this is my highest priority right now. This is exactly what I should be doing with my time... right now.
As long as I am not wasting time and I am committing my plans to the Lord, I can be assured that I am accomplishing everything He has set out for me to do that day. I can rest easily at night in full confidence that I have finished all that was supposed to be finished.